I heard it's
footsteps in the distance, tree limbs being moved and twigs breaking.
I turned quickly and saw nothing but six feet of snow and gray gloomy
skies. But the sounds of something rumbling through the snow
continued. I saw clumps of snow being kicked up like invisible hands
were throwing snowballs.
Still, I saw no
person or animal.
I was out walking
Comanche, a four year old red-haired Russian hound I had inherited
from a friend from mine when I was in New york as used car salesman.
Gnarly Dave, we called him because of the strange arrangements of
his crooked digits. When Dave died, Comanche had no where to go, so I
took him in.
This particular day,
for some reason, didn't feel right. I woke up with a weird rumbling
in my head. A bit like rolling thunder clouds, and when they collide,
it's massive noise that shakes the entire area. I had that in my
head. Taking headache tablets did nothing to alleviate the problem.
Comanche shook me
from my bed, forced me to walk him in ten degree weather at six
thirty in the morning. At first he wanted only to walk through the
front yard of the cabin. Then he took off screaming and howling at
nothing visible. I chased after him, calling out his name until my
voice was nearly gone. He led me into the wooded area behind the
cabin. I'm about four hundred yards from the next house that sits in
the valley below. Around ten miles from town that has one school
house for every grade, a police station with one cop, a truck stop
cafe for lonely truckers carrying logs to the paper mill forty five
miles away.
Comanche
disappeared. I heard him howling, trying to sound like he meant
business. Where did he go? How could a red haired dog get lost in a
white back ground?
I saw it.
It just appeared out
of thin air---materialized as they say in books. A red coat deer with
a touch of white on the chest. The deer was long, muscled animal, two
small nubs for horns placed just inches from each ear. It was
beautiful. But, it also had five legs.
Yes. I said five
legs. Damn, it looked weird. That extra leg was attached to its
tailbone, resting so confidently between its normal two back legs.
I marveled at it
for several long minutes. I thought for a moment I was caught in some
kind of dream state. I heard Comanche off in the distance, his deep
vibrato voice sounded like he was in a well. I started to feel
strange....light headed.
Then I heard the
gunshot.
Everything went
black. As I hit the cold frozen ground, a warm sensation was dripping
down my forehead to my chin.
“Oh God!” I
heard a man's voice break like he was just reaching puberty. “Are
you all right?” I felt hands on me, patting me down, until the cold
digits were touching my neck. “I'm really sorry, mister---”
I heard him burst
into a high-pitch whine, followed by uncontrollable sobs.
When I came to, I
was lying on a couch, my head bandaged as if in a hurry, a towel and
surgical tape kept the bleeding from seeping out. I opened my eyes to
a round faced woman with rosy-cheeks and a long white neck. Her skin
was unblemished, her large brown eyes complimented her honey brown
hair.
When I tried to
move, the woman gently eased me back on the couch. I was sore, but I
really think that had more to do with my fall than getting shot.
Every bone in my body ached.
“Hey....” I
heard that same man's voice that stood over me after I had been shot.
“You're awake. Grand.”
He appeared, placed
a hand on the woman's shoulder. She smiled at the man, touched his
hand with hers.
“Where am I?” I
asked in a whisper. I closed my eyes for a moment to ease the
throbbing pain in my head.
“Why, we are
neighbors,” The man said. “I'm Jack Dann. This is my wife Clara.”
“Hi,” She waved
to me and gave me a warm inviting smile.
“Your Evelyn
Williams,” He said with chuckle. “Glad to meet you.”
“How did you know
my name?” I tried not to wheeze when I spoke.
“I told them,” A
voice called out from the kitchen. I recognized it as Sheriff Hahn.
Hahn walked in the living room eating a sandwich, mayonnaise covering
his fish lips. “You had us scared, Evelyn.”
“Just what the
hell happened?” I adjusted on the pillow behind me.
Jack gave everyone
an uneasy look. He released a heavy sigh. “I shot you,” Jack
licked his lips. Clara rubbed his arm consolingly. “Most assuredly
an accident. Swear to God,” Jack held his hand up in a testimony.
“The bullet must
have grazed you. Because I got that deer too.” Jack said, pumping
out his chest, very proud of himself. “Got it hanging in the barn.
When it's ready I can give you prime cut.”
“No, I'm not so
sure I can cook it right.” I told him. “Should I go to the
hospital?' I said to Hahn.
He chuckled.
“Well...if you want to, Evelyn. I don't think you need to.” He
continued to sloppily eat his sandwich, mayonnaise dripping from his
chin.
“I can cook the
deer for you, if need be,” Clara piped in.
“Clara's a great
cook,” Jack assured me.
Something caught my
eye. I rose up slightly, looking out the living room window.
A woman with long
brown hair and olive skin, was standing in the snow wearing nothing
but a thin teary cloth dress. She was looking straight at me. I
shivered. It felt like someone had just walked across my grave.
She spoke, her full
lips moved in slow-motion. I could hear her voice echo my head. I
felt a jabbing pain throughout by body, tiny needles. I squeezed my
eyes shut. It helped to ease the horrible sensation.
I reopened my eyes,
and the woman was gone.
“Did you see her?”
I screamed, tried to lift myself from the sofa and fell weakly back
to it.
“He must be
delusional,” Jack said.
“He needs rest,”
Clara said. She shushed me as I tried to speak again. She tossed a
blanket over me, sat at my side. “The two of you just go in the
game room for awhile. Let him sleep.”
“I have to get
going,” Sheriff Hahn said, placing his hat on his head.
I closed my eyes,
drifting to sleep, still hearing that mysterious woman's voice in my
head.
************************************************************************
Six months down the
road, I became pretty good friends with Jack, Clara, and Sheriff
Hahn.
I ate at Jack and
Clara's house twice a week, fished with Hahn in the spring every
weekend when I was off from the bottling plant. Clara would come over
to my cabin and clean up behind me, and when Jack was away visiting
his family in North Carolina, she stayed with me. I grew quite
attached to Clara. Even at one point discussing our feelings for each
other. Then, of course, realizing those feelings were a deep
friendship two lonely people were experiencing.
Sheriff Hahn also
became a very dear friend. I was with him when his wife Dee was
diagnosed with breast cancer. Hahn was not as needy about friendship
as Clara and Jack. He just needed someone to sit with him in silence
at the jailhouse to play cards.
In my spare time I
became very obsessed with that deer I’d seen. A rare type, indeed.
A fifth legged creature only reported as a mistake or freak of
nature. In myths, it was stories told how a young woman in Indonesia
had died of a horrible disease. She was reincarnated as a red coated
deer traveling from village to village curing the sick, or killing
the arrogant who did not praise her for her sacrifices.
I had talked to Jack
many times about that strange red deer he killed. He couldn't
remember anything about it. He said the meat wasn't even edible,
Clara had to throw it out. That fifth leg? He always laughed it off,
said no way in hell that deer had five legs.
As for the
mysterious woman, I have seen her a lot over the last six months,
whether in my dreams, or just appearing in a room where I am. Always
the same. She would speak, and I could not understand a word she
spoke. I wasn't sure, but I believe the language was Arabic or Hindi.
At times, this
presence from the woman, would turn me into a mad man. An obsessive
who could not leave his home, didn't or wouldn't see anyone for days.
I'd had one such
episode the events that have led me to this final chapter to the
story.
Jack came to my
cabin nearly knocking my front door down.
I opened the door
and he flung himself inside bawling.
“I really fucked
up!” He screamed at me.
“Calm down,
Jack----”
“No!” He sat
down on my sofa violently. “Look, Evelyn, I fucked up bad.”
“Jack...just calm
down. Tell me what happened,” I offered him a beer.
He waved it away. I
opened the bottle and gulped it down.
“Oh,
Evelyn....geez, man.”
I sat beside him,
put my hand on his shoulder.
He sighed.
“Clara...Clara kicked me out.”
“Why? What—Jack--”
“I've been
cheating on her,” He said calmly, tears running down his cheeks.
I took my hand from
his shoulders.
He continued. “I
met her at the cafe a few months ago. The relationship picked up
steam and I did a fool thing and said I would leave Clara. Of course,
I didn't. I strung Deanna along. I tried to stop...but I
couldn't....” He began sobbing loudly. “I guess...I guess you
should meet her. She's out in the truck now.”
Still I said
nothing.
I followed him out
to his truck. I saw the young pretty dark haired girl in his
truck....but it was not who he said she was. It was the mysterious
woman out there. I wouldn't go to the truck. I wouldn't meet her. I
stood on my porch drinking my beer.
I looked at Jack,
finished off the bottle, tossed it aside. “Get off my property,”
I told him.
“Huh—what?” he
was perplexed.
“Leave!” I
screamed at him. “I don't want to meet your whore. You hear me? We
are through, Jack. No more hearing bullshit stories from you or
bragging about family members being kin to historical figures. You
don't deserve Clara.”
With that last spear
thrown into his side, Jack got in his truck and drove off. As the
truck passed by, I could hear his girlfriend say:
*******************************************
After a few days, I
still couldn't compute the weeks happenings. Loneliness set in my
bones again. I needed to talk to someone.
I went to visit
Clara. She was gone. The house was empty. The doors were not even
locked. No furniture, nothing. No signs that anyone had even been
there in a few days.
My terrible want for
those I cared for weighed heavily upon me. I needed someone
desperately. I went into town looking for Sheriff Hahn.
I found Deputy
Gilbert instead. He was very upset. I came into the jailhouse and
found him sitting at Hahn 's desk.
“He's gone,”
Gilbert said. 'He'd hung himself with his belt over there....in the
that cell, Evelyn, and I’m the one that found him,” He fought
back tears, sucking in air through flared nostrils.
“I -I can't
believe—this....Why?” I sat sat down uneasily in a chair opposite
Gilbert.
“He stole county
funds. Embezzled the money meant for the police department. The
bills...his wife's cancer treatment....he had to do it...I'm sorry
i'm saying this, but...he had to, Evelyn. He had to pay all of that
shit off.
“No choice.”
**************************************************************
I went home.
I was shattered.
I just sat in my
living room not know what to do next. I know that week I had missed
so much, that they were had most likely fired me from the bottling
plant.
No friends.
No money.
No life.
Hahn was right to
end it.
Then she appeared.
She was standing
over me, her dark hair falling over top of my face. She offered her
hand to me. I took it. The room disappeared, only the white of the
snow became the background. Comanche could be heard barking in the
distance. I was standing outside in the woods like the same day I
met Jack, and had been in Clara and his house with Sheriff Hahn. She
was still holding my hand. She spoke, this time I understood her.
“A life for a
life.....” Her angelic voice was overcome by a thunderous sound
echoing through the quiet woods.
I felt a sharp pain
in the temple of my forehead. The wind came and whisked the
mysterious woman away.
The last I remember
was I was lying on the cold ground, a warm sensation running down my
face and Jack hovering over me, screaming he'd shot me.
Darkness came
swiftly and I was no more.